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=) let the healing begin. (yea uh huh sure)

while waiting for my hair to dry to a decent level of ...uh... dry..ness. I shall blog!

lets see. looks like the last entry was about my first week of summer vacation. well then..here is my first couple of days of my second week hahahhahahhaah.

hmm. sunday. i had to go to my new nephews christining..it was at admiral kidd thanger and wow that brought me back. ..back to where I wasn't THAT much of a screw up *WiNkz*.. it was cool cuz my cousins were teaching me how to mix drinks haha. how fun is that! WAY fun. I have become expert! haha. White Russian anyone?? ..winks... haha. we got to the christining thing..ONE hour earlier...ggggrrrr..but it was all good...cuz it was beautiful and FWAN kept me company on the phone. Gracias mi amigo.

I was coming home and I got a text. "tell me if you get this" or something of that sort. so I text back "I got it." haha...and all of the sudden im at sheLLeYs pad with a hot hand of carmel apple cider. "yum" so we watch some WACK mtv stuff. "foshizzal my nizzle in the pizzadizle with a chizzle???" while shelley spits some game on her phone with that dude. ..so she does her thang and after...we had a talk. not a very deep talk, but a let me tell you everything talk, kinda. one of those co0ol talks where your not afraid  to say anything talk, at least for me it was. haha cuz she didn't say..too much, i just let it aaaallll out. and i felt so0oo "dam i love you becuase your listening." talking is GOOD. THANK YOU for listening to my STUPID shit. Byn too thanks. For putting up with how I am.

so today. was so0o very chill. but so0o very cool. we went to visit jean and did our thang..eat..go online..watch tv..sleep..the guys came over...and we had this whole shabang thing playing science trivia, HTC vs. Finalized. ..who won? ..who cares.. cuz that was fun. haha. karen had work so we took the party to my pad and did our thing..go online..play guitar..watch lil kids beat each other up (cart,baby ant and christine) ..clean..la de dah. very simple. very co0o0ooool.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh it's 11:14. mother hoe. i have to get some sleep so i can wake up to watch dam cheerleaders ..cheer at 5:30 in the morning. I hate it.

and yet...i can't live with out them hahaha. dammit! Im CURSED.............with a BLESSING.

night ya'll.

"dddDdiizzzaAaYaam" So, it's been a week into summer vacation and it feels like forever already. Is that a good or bad thing? Anywho, what a week it has been! Very chill but vEry co0ol, FUN, and interesting.

I have been through so0o much shtuff this week I aint tryin to get it all down. eh, sorry readers. MuAhAhahaha. evil eH? SHUT UP. like ya'll care, your just bored! haha.

lets see though, being with the boys and girls is always great. ASB and the asb banquet nite was awesome (dinner at buco di pepo and party at my pad) and friday, julians pad was super cool (musicians! yum! food! yum! chill! yum!)

yesterday night was just...very interesting. i REGRET nothing. I pondered and pondered A LOT about what happened and i accept everything that happen and everything I let out. We had a good conversation.

"Friends tell friends EVERYTHING". -Christine Aficial

I remember calling shelley and feeling really really bad. Emotionally (and physically). IM SORRY. I really am. I took your number off my phone so it is not to happen EVER again (maybe). I would tell you but uh..i don't have your number! member? i could call around but uh..thats hassle. Thanks for the sweater, means  a lot..i mean it smells nice. Thanks for the little talk too. Simple. Nice.

So, we start practice on Tuesday. OM Fxckin G. heh. dammit my fourth year on cheer. my LAST too. how crazy is that? It seems like only yesterday the cheerleaders were at my house every morning playing DDR. Shelley and I, dating ravers. Robyn and I slapping each other. Karen, Krystle, Irene having Sessions at each others pad. Michelle and I making fun of our math teacher. SIGh. GOOd OL Times. dammit. GREAT oL times.

im going to call robyn. im dumb. im tired..i'll write more later. bye.

summer time is here. whoop whooop. im lovin it already. and its only sunday.

friday. was the first day kind of. i went to graduation and it went by pretty fast. i watched my wonderful seniors turn their tassel thingys from right to left, it was beautiful. after, the gang and i headed for islands with the aficial family eat oinion rings and a sunset, mess with arlene and the waiter, and trying to play off accidents only derrick can see haha. later that night, we went to derricks house, to kick it off like spring break but it sucks cuz we were missing half the girls and it was really only me and karen with derk, ralph, and anthony.

here was my route: derrick to justines, justines to shelleys, shelleys to jamies, jamies to derricks, derricks to elmers, elmers to derrick, derrick to karens. each house ..was interesting VERY interesting .. even shelleys pad..and she wasn't even home!!! hahaha.

man o man. that was a crazy CRAZY night. i dont' want to leave anything out, so i just wont say anything about it. keeps you wonderin eh? haha.

so i wake up yesterday morning at karens, went home, went dentist, then went to my cousins bridal shower. dam they play some really REALLY cheesy games, but thats ok. cuz it was funny. i watched pearl harbor most of the time so i was like FXCk this..i called everyone worth calling..(not really) and everyone was out and about and were not available

so at about 730 I went to the TOP of bayview, chilled byself , taking cherry slurpee shots with my berry propel chaser. i walked up the hill to where i wanted to sit and found JRs name writting with candles. dammit R I P J R ! we fxckin miss you. i didn't want to cry. so i prayed for him and sucked it in.

 i watch the sun dip into the clouds while listening to "TV FAMILY". once the sun was completly gone FRAN called and kept me company. it's amazing how much goes through your mind and body when your alone..looking over the city. it's cool though. REALLy cool.

fran had to go to a concert so i stayed there still, with my paper. all of the sudden it was pitch black dark with only a hint of street light, and i had found 3 pages of whatever i was thinking. wierd aye?

i read it over and decided to see what shelley was up to, it was about 845 and i assumed she was out of rehearsal. dam i need to stop bugging her. (yea, ive decided to stop buggin her, lets see how long i can hang with out annoying her and byn) and yea..there was not much to say to me i guess but i love you have fun..so i hung up and sat there looking at the city lights with more stuff to think about.

i wasn't sad or depressed or mad or anything BUT i was alone. i wanted someone to come find me but no one knew i was lost. ..let me rephrase that..  i don't think no one cared that i might be lost.

so while everyone was out partying... i was at bayview. not a bad thing at all cuz it was pretty dam cool.

i had planned to see you, cuz for some stupid reason i wanted to chill with you. but if i were in your shoes i wouldve went to party too.

.....wrong, i wouldve went to ...you.

it's all good in this hoo though. blahd.

"wish for others the good things you wish for yourself" -hallmark qoute book thing

i wish for everyone to have the dopest summer! haha.

peace easy breezy.